Music Minded or Empty Minded?

As we all know, music is a huge part of my life.
I'm always happy when I'm involved in some type of musical activity, whether it's analyzing chords in Theory or screwing up songs in praise band so Michael gives us all that famous 'dirty look', it just gives me so much joy to do anything musical.

Lately, now that I'm back at DBU and thoroughly immersed in my musical sub-culture out here, I've felt like somethings been missing. Every day is filled with musical analysis, history, practice and performance, but it feels incomplete somehow.

I know that everything I'm doing on a day-to-day basis will impact my future and my ability to serve God through my career, but apart from doing my homework for His glory, I can't seem to connect the study of music to my spiritual life. I've been praying fervently that God would give me a song, something to give back to Him as a form of tangible praise. I've been really frustrated. I know that I can give Him glory and worship Him in the small ways, but for some reason I've really had this strong desire and conviction to write a song.

Every page of my prayer journal for the past two weeks has contained that sentiment.
So FINALLY last night, while i was doing my devotional and listening to my iTunes, God gave me a poem. There's no melody or rhythm, yet. But it was so amazing! I just sat there and wrote it out, and I'm so grateful that He constantly answers my prayers, even when I don't deserve it. (Which is always, of course.)
The other crazy thing is that my iTunes started playing "God of this City" right as I was finishing the poem. That's one of my favorite praise and worship songs... Coincidence, I'm sure. ;D

So here you go, my first internet poetry/songwriting debut.
Be nice, I'm not a pro.


You purchased me
You bought me with Your blood
You provide for me
Through your grace and endless love
You placed me
In the center of Your will

And I can't move
I don't even want to try
If I didn't have you holding me
This life would pass me by

I won't take one step
Not in any vague direction
Not for any selfish purpose
Only You lead in perfection
So I must follow you

'Cause You lead me
Where I know I couldn't go
And You light me
So that all the world will know
That You love me
More than I could ever show

And I can't sing
I can't smile
I can't laugh
I don't even want to try
If You're not speaking through me
Every word would be a lie

Worthless noise
Empty sound
Pointless speech
Raining down

Everything I have is nothing
Everything I am is nothing
You are all to me

So minimize me
Bring me to my knees
And silence me
If the words are not Yours,
Please.


So there you go.
God is good!

PeaceLoveandMusic.
KatieMac
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